Sunday, June 13, 2010
Separation Anxiety
You are taking a much-deserved HK vacation and I’m working on a Sunday, partly to keep my workload manageable, mostly to keep my mind off missing you. I don’t want to make a big deal out of it but I have, with all honesty, been missing you to death. I know, it’s not like we are always together. Work load does not permit that. But there is a major difference between you being a call away and us being an hour and a half plane ride apart. The mere thought makes me agitated.
Last night I remembered that conversation I had with your sister after she broke up with her long-time boyfriend. What she learned, she told me, was that no couple should stay together for mere convenience and familiarity. She advised us to once in a while delve into the foundation of our relationship, dig to the core and always find love at the center. If not, the relationship isn’t worth keeping.
The days we spent apart brought me straight to that: the innermost foundation of our commitment. We’ve been together for more than six years. I am at my most comfortable when I’m with you. You’re my best friend, my lover, my soulmate. You are basically who I need you to be in whatever circumstances. True, we have grown so familiar with each other that I can complete your sentences and you can buy me a perfectly-fitting dress. But when I take a step back and look into my heart of hearts, I know all these things are just by-products of the love we share. I KNOW, with zero doubt. Because there is no place for doubt in the heart of someone who’s found true love. And I am certain I found it with you.
In 2 days, I will be seeing you again. We will probably have a coffee date the soonest possible free evening. You will tell me stories, while we look at random pictures you took with your reliable point-and-shoot camera. I will insist, to the point of nagging, you buy a DSLR camera because your shots are so good and would be so much better with it. But you would not give in, showing how financially mature you’ve been lately. I will laugh at your crazy/funny incidents, like how I made fun of your recent Boracay escapade and how you laughed at my awkward Ilocos moments with my mom. You will enumerate specific HK destinations you would want us to visit together given the chance, like how I swore we will go to Vigan, with its romantic yellow lights and perfect ambiance. Plus, another summer in Camsur, too, this time together, because you love beach sunsets, fine sand and the sound of waves crashing.
We welcomed this year by welcoming new people and new experiences. That’s the fool-proof testament on how much we’ve grown as a couple: by how much we let our world grow. I guess that’s the beauty of an unselfish and liberating love. It never limits us, never isolates us. We grow, we mature, we see the world- with each other or with other people. And at the end of the day, we retreat back to being together, sharing stories, looking at the same direction, feeling like there wasn’t any day spent apart.
Last night I remembered that conversation I had with your sister after she broke up with her long-time boyfriend. What she learned, she told me, was that no couple should stay together for mere convenience and familiarity. She advised us to once in a while delve into the foundation of our relationship, dig to the core and always find love at the center. If not, the relationship isn’t worth keeping.
The days we spent apart brought me straight to that: the innermost foundation of our commitment. We’ve been together for more than six years. I am at my most comfortable when I’m with you. You’re my best friend, my lover, my soulmate. You are basically who I need you to be in whatever circumstances. True, we have grown so familiar with each other that I can complete your sentences and you can buy me a perfectly-fitting dress. But when I take a step back and look into my heart of hearts, I know all these things are just by-products of the love we share. I KNOW, with zero doubt. Because there is no place for doubt in the heart of someone who’s found true love. And I am certain I found it with you.
In 2 days, I will be seeing you again. We will probably have a coffee date the soonest possible free evening. You will tell me stories, while we look at random pictures you took with your reliable point-and-shoot camera. I will insist, to the point of nagging, you buy a DSLR camera because your shots are so good and would be so much better with it. But you would not give in, showing how financially mature you’ve been lately. I will laugh at your crazy/funny incidents, like how I made fun of your recent Boracay escapade and how you laughed at my awkward Ilocos moments with my mom. You will enumerate specific HK destinations you would want us to visit together given the chance, like how I swore we will go to Vigan, with its romantic yellow lights and perfect ambiance. Plus, another summer in Camsur, too, this time together, because you love beach sunsets, fine sand and the sound of waves crashing.
We welcomed this year by welcoming new people and new experiences. That’s the fool-proof testament on how much we’ve grown as a couple: by how much we let our world grow. I guess that’s the beauty of an unselfish and liberating love. It never limits us, never isolates us. We grow, we mature, we see the world- with each other or with other people. And at the end of the day, we retreat back to being together, sharing stories, looking at the same direction, feeling like there wasn’t any day spent apart.
# posted by Liana : 8:43 AM
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