Monday, July 28, 2008

Pre- graduation Jitters

I’m using Keng’s laptop in typing this, and after seeing all our pictures in his files, I was urged to write this entry.

Almost exactly the same time four years ago, we were accomplishing our application forms for various schools. I remember teasing him about merely copying from mine, including the choice of course. Back then, we often ask each other questions about the future, about what’s in store for us after graduation. And by that, we meant what will happen to US after we part ways.

We were clouded with fears, then. We were scared about all the monsters awaiting us. We have faith in our relationship, but we were clueless about what College can do to change what we have. I mean, how many “break- up after high school” stories do we have to hear to be concerned?
And that was how we were four years ago.

Now, as we are about to face another life-defining change, I notice we skipped that sort of pre- graduation ritual. We no longer ask what ifs and give maybes. We had been through this episode years ago- when we were a lot more immature and selfish, when we were still possessive and jealous. But even then, we survived. So perhaps that explains the absence of fear of uncertainties.

I know it’s going to be different out there. I’m not saying things will be easier in the years to come. I mean, there will still be monsters, like hellish work schedules, slave- driver bosses and slutty secretaries and flirt officemates. Entering College after high school is nothing compared to entering the real world after College. But then again, the point is, we were nothing like how we used to be.

Looking back at how we took care of our relationship gives me more than enough assurance that there’s nothing life will throw at us that we can’t surpass.

And that’s not because of the number of years we spent together, but more of, how we spent those years.

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